Friday, June 13, 2008

Just venting

When I was a child I had a challenging time reading. When in the first grade before class actually started each student had to take a turn reading to the kindergarteners until the teacher arrived in the classroom. I remember how terrified I was and how inadequate I felt standing in front of these kids who were younger than me and trying to read a simple story. We're taking about 1953 when everything about educating a girl was so different than today. I don't remember my parents ever being concerned no less interested in my ability to read of lack there of. I struggled throughout school to comprehend but did manage to get by.

It wasn't until my younger son was having trouble reading in first grade that I recalled my memory. I was asked to have him tested at the Children's Hospital. Many of the questions the therapist asked pertained to me and the dad. I told the story of my struggles and found out I was dyslexic. My son had a visual perception problem which eventually worked itself out as predicted but my dyslexia remains with me till today.

Throughout my life I compensated by using my visual ability to work things out as I was never taught how to do it any other way. Today, although I can read well, I still go straight for the visual which brings me to my new challenge...the computer.

I am trying to develop my own website and learn what I need to on Photoshop. I am having a heck of a time teaching myself as I go just by visual adaptation. It's just not happening as fast as I would like as I struggle due to my lack of comprehension. This is a major challenge for me and I'm trying to be patient with myself. I took one class in Photoshop and have friends I can call to help. I try not to be a pest or burden as everyone is busy with their own stuff. However, I'm resigning myself to the fact that it will either take me a long time to accomplish this task or I will have to pull in outside help. And...I thought the computer was supposed to be people friendly, huh! :)

Anyway, I just needed to vent. Today is another day....

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